i was late for school reached at 7.35 sharp, b'cos of some bloody f* up bus driver.
went in, ran 25 rounds ard the roundabout at the foyer._l_
after that, listened to mr.nethi's craps. about being late, he kept saying about the stuff of last year. which is history.
had enough, he didnt give us back the yellow form, and asked us to wait for him.
we waited for him around 30mins in the DENTENTION ROOM. _l_
then siewping came down to get me at 0830, cause MR.LIM asked her to do so. as there is geog common test. then got PERMISSION from MISS.AW, she passed a YELLOW FORM to me,written message for me and mr lim asking me to go back to the dc room after then test.okay whatever took it and ran back.
went back to class, found out SHIT! i didnt study for test._l_
i struggled through the test. T.T
i got messed up totally, even with the number of the qns.
i finished the paper, then it is TlS's lesson.
i got permission from her to get back to the detention room.
when i reach there, i wasnt in good mood as i didnt know to do the test & some emotional probs.
i asked mr nethi for the YELLOW FORM for late coming,
he refused to give me as he said he alrdy returned them. he asked me who gave me permission then i passed him the YELLOW FORM miss aw handed to me.
he start to 'bark' saying i am to see miss aw not him.
i feel so dam fucked up and kept telling him is to get the late coming yellow form from him as it is on the table.
he refused and pushed me out of the dm's room, asking me to stand outside of the room.
then suddenly dont why, i feel so dam pissed off, and lost my calmness, and started scream at him. i almost scold out the insulting words as im really not in the mood.but he is bloody lucky. mr ng was around, he stopped me.
if not i would have scolded vulgarities at him.
mr ng asked me to calm down & wait for him to settle some things.
then he so called 'counselled me' i told him what happen.
he just tell me not to care too much & the people that said whatever things to me are being childish.suddenly i felt like being woked up from a nightmare, & think back.
i agree with him canns. then i thought about it for the whole recess,i got my senses back after the talk. THANKS MR.NG.
after recess, i got back my chem results, i got A2 for chem!!! mrs.HO rewarded the people that got As LOLIPOP.(:
29/40.^^ after that, physics.T.T got back the papers. lold. 18/40 at first. then at the end of the lesson, libing&me were chatting away, then heard chunhei there argueing with mr.leong bout the marks. unexpectedly, he got the mark.lame. 1mark. then libing& me decided to do the same thing, and we suceeded. we laughed like mad canns, because of us ranting at the cher, saying some inrelevant stuff earned us 1 mark.=.= it is good anyway.(:
after that, went to find mummy&daddy.
ate & stuff.=.=
then end of the day!
THERE ARE PICTURES!(:
&&they did not call me for the celebrations for, MR.W's birthday
.I SENT HIM TO HOSPITAL, NOW IN ICU. im missing him alot, even we are only separated for a few hours.
12:49 AM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
hellos.
the whole day, only the PE lesson was fun. we played volley ball.(: dam fun canns. i teamed with SIEWPING at first played against, DYLAN&BOYUAN.lold. losed dunno how much score.T.T then when it came the real game, i teamed with DYLAN.played against,SIEWPING&BOYUAN.lold. my team won like 7-3? or more.=.= then after that joined team with LIBING&ZHIWEI.the other team added DESMOND&ALEXSEE. my won most of the score too.lold. we didnt remember the score, c'os the game was dam fun. THE WHOLE DAY IS ONLY PE LESSON IS FULL OF LAUGHTER.
other then pe lesson, is full of sorrow&tears for me. maths lesson, i failed bloody maths.F9 T.T then english paper, also F9. *CRY* btw, the whole class failed english.highest was ALSON. E8 b'cos of results i cried when i saw mr.tan today, partially some emotional probs. how i wish i was in his class, he is such a good teacher, i can just say anything to him as it is comfortable talking to him. bio lesson was scary, we boiled some enzymes in liquid form.(somestuff to carryout digestion.) in a test tube, and the liquid kept spurting out, dam scary plus somemore it is hot.
&&i confronted them, i feel that they dont worth my tears, i thought they understands me and stuff. it all my side of thinking, i have decided, i wont care whatever shit thing about them. i will try to do stuff without them.P.S( I WILL NOT LET YOU PEOPLE OFF SO EASILY) && TODAY WHEN I REACH HOME, I FOUND OUT. SOME IDIOT PEOPLE STOLE MY BILLABONG SLIPPERS.T.T I JUST BOUGHT THEM. SADDED, IT IS EX DE CANNS FOR SOME SLIPPER. FUCKED UP SIA, CHEEBYE.I WILL SO NOT LET OFF THE PERSON IF I WERE TO FOUND MY SLIPPERS._l_ FUCKING BAD DAY. KAN NI NA BEY CHAO CHEE BYE.
i think that's all for the day. GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE.
if you know how to read, you will know the meaning. the song is in hokkien.(:
8:03 PM
NOW, I PRONOUNCE I AM A NIP, Not Important Person. that's what my classmate said to me, cause he didnt notice me being absent. is that true?? whatever lerrs, that's what people said. i suddenly feel that my whole life like a snail, always slower than people, slimy then no one wanna get close to me. then when i got faster and got on their heels, they will get rid of me. or even step me on their foot, what the hell. i just feel that no one cares. people just critisize me whenever or whatever they want. is hurting you know? although, i want you people to be frank with me, but it is hurting to those who are really blunt. but it is also hurting when people hide things from me, it is really hurting to do that sort of thing.
to friend(vl), what am i to you? something that will alway be there for you, i agree but after whatever i cheer you up or my concerns about you. you just turn your head around and say "NO" to everything i asked you.do you think our friendship is a game?? or do you think that im not someone to trust, so you can toy me feelings by being good towards me when you need it, and when no one else is there & being bad when you have other good friends around, nelecting me?? can you please answer me? ( you should know who you are) okay, i think im done with the confessions. today was quite a day with fun annoucements, one, mangrove trip for bio students, two, science club eviromental project& third, classroom seatting arrangement changed. last, the battle field guide doing our jobs.((: im sitting with siewping, with guy all around, except gellene&xianyun behind us.(:
in class during pure geog lesson was like dam funny cans. siewping & me played some really LAME game, she was like touch my stomach suddenly say. 'omg, suyi you're pregnant! & 7 months old.' i was like playing with her, 'OMG, you too, but 2 months nia,T.T' then was like yayaya. then say what i giving birth lerrs, then her pajiao barney came out. i was like. WTF? my baby where go pa jiao one,=.= lame huh. the people around was like, wth? ESPECIALLY ROYSTON & CHUNHEI. then gellene and xianyun behind like also playing part,lold. during the lesson i took MR.L's teachings as the wind beside my ear.(: he is sorta noisy and irritating, but in all not lahhs, just tht he is kaypo.T.T
is this what you want to tell me? im so not ready for it.
11:36 PM
Friday, February 22, 2008
hellos. nothing much to talk about to today. went to yanyi's house after school. second time, & second time sleep at her house.=.= so dam paiseh. pictures.
okay, i know im fat, lold. yanyi, you are" showing off" hahas. understand not?
im living in hatred right now, nothing can turn back time. everyone hates me, no one cares.
i dont think the current friends are real. they only look for me when they need to. i heard rumours of people bad mouthing about me. am i that irritating, disgusting, unfavourable or even ugly? i dont know, it is up to you to judge.
P.S(im a total failure in social life.) && i gave up hope 叶子在窗外轻轻摇动 人行道没有行人走过 镜子里的我很不像我 自从你离开了我变得很软弱 你的影子在每一个角落 好像是在提醒着我 少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活 我想我可以假装不曾爱过 感觉如果要走谁能说 NO 我想我可以习惯一个人生活 在记忆里面擦去你的承诺 爱情是个梦而我睡过头 我想我可以习惯一个人生活 在记忆里面擦去你的承诺 爱情是个梦而我睡过头
我想可以习惯一个人生活
10:22 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
hellos, im posting late. the chem test today was average.(: managable(: after school, went out with ten people including me.(; we went pizza hut to eat.o.0 actually took some pics, but... the people saw it and deleted them.=.= after eating, went to study for MT. T.T then after tht went home with peisi. 7+ went to lao yu sheng. pictures will end this post.
&&i think he knows about it, " even if you know it, please dont syop talking to me." dont saying *** dont means anything.
11:08 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
hellos. i'm gonna blog about three days straight in row.(: it is in sequences past to now.(:
i did post about the night i went to vanessa darling's house, the outing with vanessaL and people. as promised the pictures are out(: that's all for the pictures.(:
yesterday, i was late for common test! 0.0 it was like what the hells canns.woke up at 7.30 am. then was like going to cry already. i did all the necessary and ran off. reach school around 7.50 to 8. when i reach school good thing is im not far behind time i still have ard 40mins. im so dam relieved sia. the day was kinda sucky. the teachers teaching my class sucks to the core. ESPECIALLY GUY TEACHER. during school assembly, we were asked to sing the school song many times T.T dumb canns. but is like after the performance. while watching the performance. dylan have nothing else better to do and change the BENDEMEERIAN CODE. original AS A TRUE BENDEMEERIAN, IM PROUD OF MY SCHOOL, UNIFORM AND PERSONAL APPEARANCE I OBEY THE SCHOOL ATHUORITY IM POLITE IN MY SPEECH AND MANNERS IM SELF- DISCIPLINED, HONEST AND HARDWORKING AND I WILL ALWAYS LIVE BY THE SCHOOL MOTTO"FROM EACH HIS BEST" (OMG, IM SO NOT LOOKING AT MY HANDBOOK) edited as a true bendemeerian, im ashame of my school, uniform and personal appearance i do not obey the school athourity im rude in my speech and manners im ill-disciplined, dishonest and lazy and i will never live by the school motto"from each his best" (no offence this just for entertianment teachers reading pardon me)(: after school slacked with yanyi and ppl.
today. i had sort of a mood swing. b'cos i didnt have enough sleep. i slept in tls lesson. then woke up right before the lesson end. i started doing chem hmk, she was like walking towards to me and snatched the book away from me. i was like what the fuck? im like bloody pissed, i done the work for her. then i went to take the book. she was like asking me to write a apology note, blah blah blahs. FUCkED UP canns. _l_ ** other than tht there is one more. but, better dont mention, he has a blog too. he is a bastard, fucked up person too. he sucks canns. then the english paper is hard de lorrs. thanks to tls AGAIN. b****
vanessaL; cheer up man girl, without that person you still can live; you will always have me when you need me.(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMIAN!! 15years old le worrs. jiayou on your studies.(:
i think thats all. SAYONARA.
&& should i tell him about it?? it is kind of bhb.=.=
6:47 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
I want to be the best There ever was To beat all the rest Yeah, that's my cause
hahas, my favourite show like 3 years ago? hahas. im still like watching now. hahhs. im too bored, while talking on the phone with people. i miss those times, nthg to worry about, unlike now, lots of crap to worry.(:
12:21 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
hellos. now, im like listening to ashraf and boyuan craping in the conferance. keep saying "then how"... LOLD.
today, it had a good start, but in the end it is bad. 11+ i went to meet damian, weikai & elgin to study. then slowly, more people joined us.(: 12+ vanessa came to study too. then after tht, we wen to eat at fork and spoon. peisi & ashraf came too. slowly ram and mr tan came.(: as soon as mr tan came, peisi, van & me left.
peisi went for siewping's house to study. then vanessa accompanied me to parkway to fix my watch. is a dissapointment in the end, have to bring it to heeren to fix it. T.T but i really have to say something about the person served me. he dam fucked up canns.his attitude sucks.
after 1hr+ the guys came to look for us, they eat again at BK, weikai bought a set with milo, an dthe cup ia freaking small, the same length as their wallets closed =.= then went to 77th street to let damian choose his birthday present. bought a t- shirt for him. i think he likes it, it is worth 35 bucks if he really like it.(: then after that all of us head home weikai, ram, damian, vanessa & me took bus 31. the bus was kind of empty, so we got very high dunno why. played like mad. i think the uncle sitting all the way at th front of the second floor of the bus, feels tht we are noisy.XP took some funny pictures. will upload later in the week, cause my usb cable went gone case. T.T
the bad ending of the is really bad, i dont want to mention it. ytd went vanessa house in the night as mentioned. had so much fun. pictures will be uploaded.(:
thats all. SAYONARA!
&& im falling deeper, i dont think there is a way to get out of it. i dont whether should i tell you about it.
11:33 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
hellos, im in a good mood today!:D
FINALLY. today, ah jean's friends came to my house.o.0 they are also my friends, lold. we gambled alot, from 2+ untill now till going on. lold. i tired of it liaos.Xp took some pictures.(: me and christie.(: me and caizhuang my biao yi.(:
and you know what? vanessa darling came! i miss her so much. long long time see her once.(: yeahs, im going to play ban luk lerrs. i going vanessa'a house later, continue the post later.(:
SAYONARA! ^^
7:54 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
The dawn is breaking A light shining through You're barely waking And I'm tangled up in you Yeah
When I'm open, you're closed Where I follow, you'll go I worry I won't see your face Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes Even the wrong words seem to rhyme Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow findYou and I collide
I'm quiet you know You make a first impression I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes Even the stars refuse to shine Out of the back you fall in time I somehow find You and I collide Don't stop here I've lost my place I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes Even the wrong words seem to rhyme Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find You and I collide You finally find You and I collide You finally find You and I collide
&& that is how i feel for you, boy. but, ILOVEYOU i hope you know, but i hope you dont run away from it. im scared of it.
11:07 PM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
hellos, im sorry about the bad posts, but when i was about to post a good one. i was having a great time before but my fucking bastard father spoiled my mood again. FUCKED up sia, i had already refrained from speaking in this way, but he forced to do so. he that chee bye, i was talking my mother, then the fucking bastard suddenly came and give me some fucking idiot lecture. cheebye lahhs, you thought you're my father you very big arh. nabei gave me so many empty promises still dare to talk. fuck you lahhs. when quarreling still dare to say you owe me nthg, fuck you lahhs, you owe me the MOST man. MOTHER FUCKER. this post is meant you for fucker.
please know what the fuck you're doing, you not happy with us you can go to your beloved kallang bahru house. i dont care whether you are coming to sleep already, i dont care you're dead or alive.i just wish that you will dissapear from my sight.CHEE BYE.
im gonna do things that you dont like, thing that i once listen to you and obeyed, i dont care about it anymore. believe it when i say i will do so.
my mood is swinging vigorously, i getting pissed off so easily.once you say smth i will mean it, i dont listen to explainations. AND CURRENTLY, i dont know why, i started to feel tht everyone is distant from me. i dont have any friends around me anymore.i feel so neglected, no one cares any way. i just feel that, no one likes me, cares for me or anything. i dont feel any love my friend had for their other friends. those that once gave me the attention i need, has gave their attention to their boyfriends, she no longer has me with them. she only remember those which has school nearer to her's and prettier than me, am i that bad? i always ask myself, am i? OMG. tears are rushing out, it is just like, empty, no one care anyway, i only see people wearing mask in front of me right now, they are all hypocrites. I LOVE MY FRIENDSI HATE THEM
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
although i dont have one.
9:18 PM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
hellos. my world. today, im in bloody emo mood, totally not feeling good. all i can do is wish the next day will be better. haiis. all kinds of feelings are swimming in me. i feel so, dissapointed and stuff. im not getting any concerns from my peers. T.T is like i care for people but others don care at all. even if there is, it is the mask they are wearing. people giving me empty promises, take me as a joke, is like, they are treating as if, im an idiot. i don really have examples for those i mention.as long as you feel tht you don treat like that, is will feel ok.
:D
7:13 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
hellos. right now im bloody pissed off by my father. he is really a f*ker canns. today, when i reached home i was being locked out as the door is locked then i have no key. so i went out with my cousin nearby.i told him i will be home late, then out of the blue he asked me to fetch my sis, when i was far away, and it wasnt my appointed day to fetch her, so i declined it. then when i reach home he was scolding me vulgarities and screaming at me. WHAT THE F*! pissed off canns, then say what, i dun ask anything from him.f* i was thinking it should be another way round lahhs,wth, he dunno gave me how many empty promises already, still dare to say that. WHAT THE HELL!
6:24 PM
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
o4o2o8 just as normal SCHOOL! ): i dont really remember what happened, xp pictures tells story.(: physics lesson, I'M SO BORED! siewping trying to beat rahim, LOLD. daryl is getting it next.XP royston is helping out, LOLD.
after curriculum time, BATTLE FIELD GUIDE TRAINING! this is the lift during WWll used to bring up bombs. this is the entrance, (: 6 inch artillary gun. grave? found in the middle of no where. T.T pillbox.0.o pillbox entarance.o.o fucking small canns?
nice view?
pulau balakang mati? ROYSTON YOU'RE too OBVIOUS.
it is YOU again. lold.
on the way back.(:
delis & me.
what are they laughing at??
changed venue, at president's grave there.lold.
& the war heros thingy.
the cross.
malcom tan talking.
i think that's all the pictures i took.
^^
SAYONARA!
REPLY OF TAGS;
jingyi; of course i remember you.(:
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bernard; what is your problem?!
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8:38 PM
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